Wednesday, November 9, 2016

november 9th

I wake up to a nation I do not know.

I process by writing. These are my ramblings trying to make sense of my confusion. You’re welcome to them, maybe it will help someone.

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On one hand I’m surprised that the person with the most money didn’t win.

I’m genuinely surprised that my nation isn’t totally an oligarchy. 

[ well, actually that remains to be seen ]

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“And to the young people in particular, I hope you will hear this. I have, as Tim said, spent my entire adult life fighting for what I believe in. I've had successes and I've had setbacks. Sometimes, really painful ones. Many of you are at the beginning of your professional, public and political careers. You will have successes and setbacks, too. This loss hurts, but please never stop believing that fighting for what's right is worth it. It is — it is worth it. We need you to keep up these fights now and for the rest of your lives.” - Hillary Clinton concession speech, November 9th, 2016

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If all your friends jumped off a bridge, would you?


I was always taught that this was the response to that question.

You’re always supposed to do the right thing even when no one else will.

You’re supposed to stand up for what you believe in even when it is unpopular.

You’re also supposed to stand up for those who are oppressed, those whose voice is being drowned out by unkindness and fear.

You’re supposed to stand up to bullies.

So what happened to what I was taught?

Why did this election become a bunch of people jumping off a bridge because everyone else was?

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We do not yet know what history will say about the next term of president in this nation.

But one day my children or grandchildren will ask about this election, just as I asked my grandmother what were people thinking when FDR took a third and fourth term.

I will be able, with clear conscience, be able to proudly but humbly tell them I did not vote for fear. 

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It was difficult for me to even think about going to church before election day.

Now, that seems so much more daunting.

It’s so hard to try and step near places that claim to be the body of Christ when that body reeks of fear, and fear is not the aroma of Christ.

[there is one church locally I know I could still probably go to though, so that is comforting]

It’s gonna take some time. It may take a move to another nation. Who knows.

I just wish church was a place of healing as it once was. I wish it was a beacon for the weary as it is supposed to be. We are all so weary, we need the true Rest that the true Comforter can provide. 

But where is He in all this fear?

[ He’s still here, somewhere ]

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The opposite of love is not hate.

The opposite of love is fear.

And unfortunately, fear overtook many in this nation.

And now, in response, many are fearful for what this means for them and their families and friends. I’m trying to not be scared, but it is an uphill battle. It’s hard to not be scared for what this means for women, minorities, muslims, the lgbtq community, disabled persons, or even anyone who doesn’t align with the same views, as the new presidency whose platform was based on alienation takes hold. 

But we don’t overcome fear with hate. We don’t overcome fear with fear.

We overcome fear with love.

My friends and family who are scared of what this new presidency means for them - know that you’re loved, you are of much worth, and you’re not alone. There are many standing on your side, including myself. And we’re not going anywhere. I truly hope you will not be bullied, but if you are, please don’t hesitate to speak up.

My friends and family who voted for this new presidency - obviously I still love you too, even when I don’t agree with your decisions. I hope we can all be kind to one another, not gloat, and come together amidst the divide. Most importantly, I hope more will be able to learn empathy on a huge scale. Listen. Please, please - learn how to actively listen, especially when it makes you uncomfortable.

I truly hope this presidency will not continue to divide us further, but will teach us how to humble ourselves, listen to each other, and love so powerfully that change can occur on a deep level in many hearts and institutions.

We’ve got work to do, people.